Today, I actually felt really pissed at someone! Just felt like going up to confront that person! It's like, argh.

But of course I didn't.

And it made me feel so bad for one WHOLE day. It was simmering inside me, this feeling that refused to fade away. During maths lesson I kept thinking about it!

During Integration FA, I kept thinking about it!

It's like, this horrible dreadful feeling stuck in my heart somewhere and not letting me breathe properly.

(okay a bit exagerrated lah ahaha but you get the idea lah)

You know, when you're feeling quite annoyed and you feel like confronting someone but yet you don't think it's REALLY wise to do it, that kinda feeling?

Yes, I had that feeling. It was brooding inside me!

%@$!@$^%!$@^%!%^!!!!

Sheesh. Why am I so COWARD.

WHY AM I ALWAYS SO COWARDLY?!

Grrr. Can't stand my coward-ness sometimes. Like don't even dare to do anything and just let it stay in my heart and simmer. Forever and ever.

Until one day, that person does something nice for me and I actually totally forget about it!

Forget about all the terrible stuff. The sun comes out and shines again! The birds chirp and the flowers bloom!

Like, wtf right.

I need courage.

And some patience. And please open up my heart to understand and hopefully, forgive. Thank you.

PS: I actually have a strange feeling that my confrontation will come soon. Or either that person will confront me first due to my cold and don't-really-wish-to-talk behaviour. Haha. We'll see.
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