There is something that has been at the back of my mind for a long time.

I've not touched it, neither have I pondered about this or bothered to talk about this for some time.

Yes, it's about you.

The reason why I kept quiet all this while was because I did not want to blow up this matter.

Despite knowing that I was not the one in the wrong, I knew if I did go around and tell everybody about what ACTUALLY happened, it would blow things up to a larger scale and make things worse.

Thats why I kept it in my heart for really long until today, and I believe up till now some people still believe that what you said was true, and still view me with the eyes that come with the words which you said.

I remember sometime, last year.

I was new to my surroundings and you were an experienced old bird. (sorry, I just had to use the word 'bird' cos I think it really suits you)

Perhaps, you were bored. Perhaps you felt the need to vaporize someone for you own personal pleasure so that you would look good.

Nevertheless, thank you I guess, for being a 'friend'.

Thank you for hanging out with me, showing me acts of concern, building rapport with me, telling me about some of your insecurities (hmmm, are they really?) and letting me see you as somebody who wasn't as bad as others claimed.

Thank you for the nights out with me, where we just walked and talked and you poured out some of your issues and listened to me.

I was listening in the status of a friend who actually believed you were genuinely in need of friends.

I thought other people were being biased towards you, and that they could not recognize that you were in fact, a mere being with the ability to feel with your heart truly.

I believed you just wanted to do good for everybody, even though they must have interpreted your intentions badly (oh they must have!).

Hey, geez, perhaps this is the reason why you have little friends in the first place, I suppose?

For you were somebody who allowed me to place my trust in you, and confide in you some of my heartfelt issues, before turning around and stabbing me in the back.

Thank you for showing me the truth, and telling me you wanted to help me to get rid of the evil, when you were essentially the truth in itself.

I do not know what you were thinking when you went around spreading untruths to everybody, just because I did not talk to you for a while.

Thank you for looking into my eyes and telling me you liked me with true genuinity, before telling everybody that I was the one who liked you, and you found me irritating.

Thank you, really, I must say.

However, I must say my real thanks lie in the fact that I now know what kind of person you truly are, and to allow me to unravel myself quickly from this whole complicated mess that you have created and still trap yourself in.

After the incident, I must say I was truly shocked to hear about this coming from of all people, but you. But after a moment of pondering, this thought came into my mind.

"Who would not have known? Who would not have known what this kind of person truly was?"

I have kept my peace about this issue for a year.

All I can say now is, today I am now glad that I know what kind of character you truly are - very intriguing and interesting (yes), but also very complicated and messed-up.

You asked me, why? Why is your life always filled with dread and gloom?
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Let me tell you why.
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You are the one who constantly brings yourself into all these issues.

I wouldn't have minded if you were not my friend at first.

People ask me why don't I talk to you anymore, why don't I even look at you?

Is it because I feel upset that you 'rejected' me?

Let me tell you the answer, point-blank:

It's because, I do not want to be associated or even go near somebody like you.

I hate the thought of having somebody whom I thought was a friend, turn around and stab me in the back, then claiming that I stabbed my own self.

Yes, t'was very nice of you. Extremely kind, eh.

I hope you do not do it to another innocent party though.

That's it. I've said my peace.

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