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Wednesday, July 25, 2007 @ 9:46 AM


Hmmm. With good things, there are always bad things as well. Not everything in life comes along with being all nice and fluffy.

I'm sorry to say that in my life, 80% of the time I have been looking through rose-tinted glasses.

I trust people really easily. As long as you talk to me, and you don't bore me and we have a good time talking together, you're my friend. Instantly.

And once you're my friend, I trust you. Wholeheartedly.

I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. Viv said that it's both.
It's good that I trust people, but too often I tend to trust people too much and end up getting hurt sometimes.

I rarely have enemies. In fact, none.
And I'd like to think it's a good thing.

In secondary school, I was very cautious of what I said to other people. It grew to an extent that I would have to place myself in the other person's shoe to feel what he/she's thinking and before saying what I wanted to say. I became even more so when I had a best friend who was also equally cautious of what she said to people, and together, we didn't reveal too much to others.

Perhaps it was a good thing?

When you're cautious, you don't trust people easily. You take a longer time to open yourself up to others.

When I entered JC, I met a friend. Once, this friend told me, "You know, I feel that you're not really opening yourself up to me. Can you please show me more of yourself?"

This little sentence made me think.
I want to, but sometimes I'm afraid of the consequences.

It's either, I be wary and stay on the safe side.
Or trust everyone (and make some happy) and get hurt in the process.

Another friend once told me before that between the ages of 17-19, you'll experience a time of growth. You'll gradually mature and become an adult.

Oh wells. Along with the experience, comes hurt of course. When all children learn to walk, they fall down. Likewise, when you're on a learning journey, the road isn't often smooth and on the contrary, is very often bumpy. When you trip on a little rock, you fall down.

And there are 3 ways to react with the situation.

1) Sit there and curse. (Very often, these are the people who procrastinate)
2) Cry because you have a new bruise on your knee.
3) Dust the dirt off, and get up again.

I've decided.

I'm going to get up again.

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Hello, I am Jia Xin.
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