My New Year's Resolutions.


Lately, I have taken to thinking a lot.


I'm been trying to find myself.


I realise that I'm a person who might look strong on the outside, full of cheer and full of happiness. I never really grumble, unless I feel unhappy. And I never really feel unhappy. People who know me might think I never have worries. I play a lot, I joke a lot, I'm loud and crazy among my friends but shy around strangers.


And only my closest friends know that I feel a lot. Feelings overwhelm me.


I love like nobody would. I love with passion, with no restrictions and no boundaries. When I love a person, I embrace his/her flaws. I love my best-friend (yes I'll admit that), I love my friends and I love my family the most.


Warm up to me and I'll trust in you just as easily. Show me that you'll respect me, and I'll respect you too. Trust in me and I'll gladly do the same, 10 times over.


It takes a lot of break that trust.


But once it's broken, it's just gone...


Unfortunately, I also tend to get hurt easily. That is one of my flaws.


A friend once asked me, "What are your flaws?" And I said, "I tend to get hurt easily".


That person simply laughed and said, "That is not a flaw! I love you for who you are."


Well, now you know. It is a flaw, and you have experienced it too.


I'm not perfect, and nobody is. I constantly ask myself not to look for perfection in a person, cos I know that it will never come.


And I think it's so true.


Why ask for perfection? When you know it will never come, you would only be asking for the impossible and disappointing yourself irregardlessly. I would like to imagine that I could accept anyone for who they are.


I've been trying to do that.


Sometimes people ask me, "Why do you care so much?" You never seem to hate.


Yes, it's true. I can't hate anyone because I find it hard to hate a person... I know it sounds weird. But somehow I just do.


That's me.


Some people just hate. And I mean, hate. Hate for a reason, hate for no reason. Hate, just because that person did you wrong, hate because you can't get along... hate, just because.


I admit I used to hate. I used to hate people who betrayed me, I used to hate people who hated me... when I was young, I used to have what you would call "enemies". Enemies in primary school, "don't friend you anymore" and all that kinda nonsensical stuff. But as I grew up, I realised that life is too short to hate.


Life should be love.


Sure, love won't make you complete. Love won't make me complete. But love definitely makes me cherish.


And sometimes I'm just a girl who loves and wishes to be loved in return.


It's just that simple.


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And now, on to lighter stuff. My new year resolutions!


In no order:


1) Be more caring to everyone around me.

2) Love thy neighbour as thyself.

3) Be more gentle. Like a shu nu, in all aspects.

4) Be more patient.

5) Grow closer to God.

6) Play more with my brother. Game with him if he wants to.

7) Be very hardworking! Stop slacking.

8) Be a funnier girl. (Haha, I didn't think of this)

9) Score 10 points and below for O's.

10) Be a beautiful person inside and out.

11) Think of one thing that makes me happy everyday.

12) Learn to cook more delicious food.

13) Tell more of my wonderful stories to people who love them.

14) Learn to love and understand.

15) Try not to think too much about things.

16) Trust.

17) Cherish the people around me. Show them my appreciation!

18) Quit being naggy.

19) Learn a new sport (rock-climbing!)


and lastly...


20) Stay a happy girl no matter what!


Yaye! Okay okay, I feel so much better now.


So these are my New Year resolutions. I will try to fulfil them, but I won't guarantee you. Haha. Most importantly is that I want to stay a happy girl everyday and have more fun with my friends! And of course, love my family.


Yes, I will be happy happy.


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU!






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