Just listened to this song, and I can't get over how fantastic it sounds.

So 1960s Parisian chic and boudoir-like.



I simply cannot hide my absolute adoration and love for the old classics. Geez. So often I have wished I lived in the past.

It beats today's trashy music, hands down, over and over again.

This song really takes me back to a different era, it makes me imagine I'm in a 1960s cabaret with gentlemen in tweed coats smoking cigars and courtesans in skin-tight flare dresses dancing gaily around them.

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When is it really the time?

Saturday, December 19, 2009 @ 7:58 PM

Decisions, decisions, decisions.

Decisions for things that have not yet arrived... ...

Decisions for invisible, unpredictable, random, perhaps even unforeseen circumstances.

I am afraid.

You're like a hot air balloon, still tied and firmly attached to the earth by a thick rope.

But the earth is getting loose with each minute the balloon fills up with steaming, searing, almost incandescent hot air. Like someone feverish with the anticipation of something new.

I want to be inside the hot air balloon, I want to be in the basket and rise up slowly exploring the whole world with you.

It will be fun, and exciting and mystifying, I promise.

But I touch the balloon and quickly draw back, my hands are too hurt and burnt. Its too hot. Its almost unreachable.

Untouchable, almost?

The earth beneath the hook cracks.

Its time. The thick rope is released, with a premeditated motion, almost cold and emotionless. Its been done a lot of times. Its just another cycle.

You rise up slowly, leaving the earth... dizzy with excitement, ecstatic about the new world.

Meanwhile I'm still grounded, firmly rooted. I call out your name. You hear me and reply, but your voice is now drowned out by the noisy, burning rage of fire.

A tear rolls down my cheek. Its warm from the heat of the hot air balloon. It tastes salty. A quick shot of reality hits me.

Am I destined to be on the ground forever?

Should I go back to my roots?

I know deep down I really yearn to... I dream to, long to, crave to. But I'm afraid. Of the whole world.

Afraid of the whole world.

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Decisions, decisions, decisions.

Friday, December 18, 2009 @ 3:55 AM

OKAY. I KNOW IT.

I WANT TO DYE MY HAIR. *firm and resolute tone*

The straw that broke the camel's back came last night when I saw my bestfriend's hair in a very lovely shade of mahogany brown with delish caramel highlights. It looked so divine glowing in the light by the pool.

But the thing is, what colour should I dye?

Its not that I don't like my hair colour now, I am pretty satisfied with black. Heck, I've had it for 19 years. Also, the best colour that suits you is usually the colour you were born with.

Hmmmmm.

I'm thinking of dyeing my hair in a dark colour because I'm pretty fair. My face, that is. Can't say the rest for my body. Yeah, I know I'm duo-toned and weir.

Did some research and I think I will be dyeing my hair at Clover Salon or Maison Hairmake in Far East. Both are highly recommended. So I hope it turns out well.

Will post a picture here after I finish provided it does not look like a disaster.

I'm willing to pay slightly more for my first time as I am a highly cautious person and very particular when it comes to my hair and skin. Thus, I would prefer my first dye job to NOT be BOTCHED.

Anyway like any sensible and responsible person, I googled and found a picture. I like this colour.



Note: Like me, she has pretty fair skin, although she's a little more cool-toned instead of the warm fair tones that Asians have. A rosy pink under-tone instead of the more sallow yellow undertones of Asians.

Or something close to this colour.


Girl on the extreme left. *Credits to sweatlee.com*

And I want to cut my hair shorter like this.


On the RIGHT. *Credits to er, unknown girl on Flowerpod? Thank you for posting up your picture.*

Anyway my hair kinda looks like the left now as you can see from my user picture on the sidebar. Unkempt, messy and a generally can't-be-bothered look.

Okay, hope I don't look sallow and unhealthy in dyed hair or something.

I need moolah.

Wondering if I should take up the waitressing job at a cafe with dear Irene or go to Recruit Express in a vain attempt at finding another job. Or go back to my old company where my boss and colleagues were really nice to me and loved me. Thats what everybody has been telling me to do now.

ARGH.

I can't stand this tai-tai life anymore, hanging around and just doing nothing.

Anyway, going to the ICA with Henry tomorrow, need to turn in early. Goodnight everyone!

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There's just something about Taylor Lautner.

Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 11:29 AM

Warning: This is going to be a very shallow and reductive post written in the highly judgemental voice of yours truly. Do not proceed if you cannot take any form of heavy criticism and jokes aimed against Twilight.
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Twilight fans are going to bash me for this.

Truth is, I wrote a very personal commentary about Twilight about a year ago when the book first came out.

There was a Twilight wave in Singapore with almost every girl worshipping Edward Cullen aka Robert Pattinson aka R. Patzz, fondly called by Hollywood gossip columnists.

I wrote a rather long and satisfying entry about why I found Twilight not a good book worth mentioning. And hardly worthy of being called a literature text, as mentioned by some zealous Twilight enthusiasts.

Some parts of the book were pretty exaggerated and the overly-descriptive prose of Stephenie Meyer was so over-powering, it made me want to vomit. Don't get me wrong, its not that I am not imaginative.

In fact I believe that I am a highly-imaginative person.

But the line is drawn when girls start swooning at 'hot' (oh, the irony) vampires... who, believe it or not, EMIT GLITTER?


How very true.

Wtf. At the rate this is going... The next decade, monsters like Godzilla would be totally hot with rippling muscles and fart sunshine. And girls would go crazy over them.

Unfortunately, being the coward that I am, I decided not to publish my entry for fear of running into a parade of swords and barricades of those Twilight fanatics. I didn't want to risk being hauled and thrown into the pile of dead and bruised Twilight critics.

But, I must clarify that. I am not of those people who read through, say, about 12 pages of the book and found it boring, decided to call it a day and tossed it aside to write a hate article about Twilight.

In fact I clenched my teeth, endured the over-emotional and unnecessary sappyness and sat through the ENTIRE book to see if there would finally be an interesting part worth mentioning and lauding.

But sadly there were none.



Being a Harry Potter fan, I am also terribly ashamed of current comparisons of Stephenie Meyer with JK Rowling and Twilight being the next Harry Potter.

You gotta be kidding me.

Both books are entirely different, work on different premises and are based on different worlds.

ANYWAY. Coming to the main basis of my post today... There's just something about Taylor Lautner, but I can't really figure out what.

Is he that hot?!

Well, just because he's about the opposite of R Patzz. Just because Lautner isn't a miserably pale, shrivelled and weak sappling, almost every girl has been crushing on him instead of R Patzz.

But there's just something weird about Taylor Lautner. Could it be his too flat face? His huge pizza-shaped nose? His weird toothy and cheesy grin? Or is it his feminine voice?

Actually... Am I the only person who finds Taylor Lautner terribly attractive, and in fact, bordering into slightly ugly?


Best photo I can find of the Lautner guy.

Hmmm. Not bad, you say. But then actually, I prefer him with his shirt off.

Okay, wish granted. I say.


A search on Google for Taylor Lautner with no shirt produces 236,000 results.

Wowwwwwwwww.

But, hang on.

A search for Lautner with no shirt on (wth, an extra word), produces 126,000,000 results!!!!!!!


WTF. Is this Lautner guy really THAT hot?!?!

Okay, let's see!!!


Right... Rightttttttt.

Oh yes, I love him! You exclaim. I love him without his shirt on! He's so hot and buff and arggghhhhhhh!!!

Okay, give him a break, I say. He's still a teen. And seriously, I don't find him all that hot.

To me, Taylor Lautner:
Face: 0
Body: 1


TL: Awww, don't look at me like that. I know I'm cuter than the blue rubber duckie.

WHY?

Well, that's because I can find many flaws on his face. But everybody has flaws, you say.

Yeah, I know. But there is ONE flaw you surely can't miss, it stands out like a sore mistake.


Your boyfriend's boyfriend.

IT'S HIS BLOODY BIG NOSE.

It's even bigger than the rubber duckie's head. No wonder the poor duckie looks away, obviously terrified.

I believe Lautner's nose is so big it could fit a mini pizza slice.

It's so big, I think it could be an entirely different entity altogether. It should be given a name. How about Rosa?

Okay, jokes aside... Well, not that TL didn't really take any measures to save it. Just got this from another website. The blue words aren't written by me.



Hmmm, I'm sorry... I guess a nose job couldn't really save Rosa.

It still freaking looks the same. But maybe slightly upturned now, a bit like an annoying little pig's snout.


L: Photo of Lautner about 8 months ago, before he hit the gym to buff up for Twilight.
R: The 'hot' guy you see on screen 8 months later.

He really does look like your 10 year old neighbour on the left. You know, the one doing "Look ma, no hands!" stunts on his four-wheeler bike every evening.

So, tell me girls, would you still love Taylor Lautner in the before picture?

Sorry, TL, I think you will always have narrow shoulders. Its just the stature.

Isn't it scary to think he buffed up so fast in such a short amount of time. Besides, if you are really looking for muscles... what are his shoulders compared, to say, an average Joe swimmer?


Swimmer enthusiast at your local pool. Way hotter than TL's bod, yes?

Okay, now, Taylor Lautner:
Face: 0
Body: 0

This is probably the best combination I could give him.

In fact I think he has an rather awkward amount of rippling muscles for an adolescent with a small stature. Combined with his rather cheesy smile, he reminds me of a backward cousin from Southern Nebraska.


TL: I think I look awesome with this smile, don't I?

WTF?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


I know you're sucking up the fame, dude. But, really... Can't take it anymore. I SAID THAT'S ENOUGH! *barfs*

Geezzzz. What is with that cheesy junior high school prom collar?

And just to prove, I'm not the only one who finds him ugly.


Many doubts at the claims about Taylor's so-called "looks".




I clicked on the lion link.

Oh my, really tough competition with Taylor Lautner.

They both look like long-lost twins!



Okay, so the last message was written by a sixth grader.

Plus it sounded descriptive, bias and she didn't use proper punctuation.

But so? I'll bet most sixth graders in this world adore him and worship him. Just because TL stars as Jacob Black and they're in love with the character.

I'm so proud of this girl that she has finally seen the light.

Please people, stop being seduced by the nature of screen names and book characters and get to know the real actor for himself before you decide if you really like him.

I feel ashamed that Twilight has to make use of 'hot looks and good bodies' to gain more popular support because the movie already sucks itself.

Okay, end of entry. Point is, I just don't find Taylor Lautner a person worth worshipping and cannot stand to hear another girl waxing lyrical about his hot looks which are non-existent.

Oh gosh. Please stop.

PS: If you want me to post up my entry about Twilight, please do tell me.

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Okay, blog rehaul! And a slight update about my life.

Saturday, December 12, 2009 @ 3:35 AM

After reading the previous comment left by an anonymous person, I felt so moved that I have actually decided to continue writing in this blog which has been left stagnant for the past year.

So anonymous, whoever you are, thank you for your encouraging and inspiring comment. This is for you.

:)

Because my old template was expired, I had to choose a new one. Spent 3 freaking hours tweaking it to my preferences, eg. adding in a comment box and editing the line space, etc.

I can't believe I am actually good at HTML but maybe its because I'm used to doing this after blogging for close to 4 years.

The reason why I selected this template is because it is bright, clean and leaves me with enough space to voice out my thoughts with. It also has no distracting huge images or blingy signs, etc. Can't stand those.

And also, dearest friends!! Don't you think this is so me?!?!?!?!!?!

Anyway, I have no excuse to NOT update now, after all, because I have finished my A Levels and I am now at home everyday, doing nothing except researching about universities, updating my Twitter, watching Youtube tutorial videos, reading lolcatz and other random blogs.

Basically, I'm being an absolute bum and leading a life which other students would gladly trade with.

Initially, I thought I would love this moment but surprisingly I do not. I am bored to tears.

Maybe its the after-effects of rushed and enthusiastic studying but I suddenly feel so useless and worthless having nothing to do. Its a complete 180-degree change from what I was 3 weeks ago.

Thats why I will go search for work earlier than I have planned!

However I will start work only next year, after I return from my trip to Vietnam over the Christmas holidays. Yup, will be going there with my family.

I can't wait to visit Ho Chih Minh City, sit in a quaint french cafe and munch on toasted french baguette dipped into cafe sua da (ie. Vietnamese coffee).


Cafe sua da.

Btw, I have rather important and unfortunate (well, depends on whose point of view) news to update you all with.

*warning: this part will be emo, mushy and contain unnecessary bits*

To my dearest friends and readers,

Henry will be going overseas to study in Australia next year March. He will be in the University Of Melbourne. Yes, its only in a few months from now.

Basically he will be going on a 3 year course and he is taking Actuarial Science. A rather competitive course to get into but I had no doubts that he would get accepted as his results were stellar. I'm so proud of my boyfriend. :')

We have decided to continue our relationship though. Currently, we've been together for 2.5 years and I am really thankful for him and appreciate him even today. However, a long-distance relationship will no doubt be challenging as it requires much effort from both parties to keep the communication going.

He will visit me during his holidays or I may fly over during mine, whatever works out.

I cannot say that I do not have doubts about this at times and whether it will really work out, but we are both willing to try this out and give in our best effort. So I really appreciate this fact right now. And I know we can go through anything since we have been through a lot.

This will probably be our biggest challenge we have to face yet.

So I hope you can offer me your prayers and well-wishes. Hope everything goes well!

*end of emo and mushy part*

Yeah, anti-romanticists and love cynics, you may now throw your eggs and tomatoes at me.

Okay, anyway its really late now and I'm tired, going to retire for the day.

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To: Hanlin in London

Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 11:34 PM

HAN LIN!!!!!

I hope you're okay and safe in London now. Didn't really have time to say a proper goodbye to you last night as you were kinda busy packing your stuff and rushing through everything. Even the hug felt kinda, almost obligatory. Haha.

But it was a good, warm and hearty group hug nonetheless and I cherished and savoured every moment of it.

Gee, hope I don't sound lesbian here.

I remember being at the airport last night, the first one to reach (oh how ironic) and sitting down on one of those plastic chairs to sew finish our farewell gift to you.

I pricked my fingers a number of times and I remembered how it itched a little while after that, making me worry if the needle had contaminated my skin.

It's a pouch and it's all sewn by us! I think it will be useful for you, since you bought so much stuff over, you might need some storage space. Please treat it with care.

Anyway, I was just looking through all photos of us 3 (or 4, with Sam) again and I really miss our times together!!

Now it feels just like when Samantha left for Australia, three years ago. A little nostalgic. I can't believe its so sudden and so fast, that you left. If I call you now, all I'll hear is an endless dial-tone ringing, vacant and empty. It's so sudden!

Omgosh I really miss you. Come back soon!!!

Can't wait for you to come back soon to tell us about Law and your life there!

PS: I hate it when friends leave. It's one of my biggest fears. Jasmine and I are going to travel around the world (soon, really SOON. Mark our words) to make up for our lack of exposure to the world beyond our shores.

From,
Jia Xin

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